quiet, awesome day

OK, not that quiet, but quiet inside me and that's where it really counts. I went to the pool as I haven't felt very safe walking much with all the ice we have around. Definitely a good choice and I felt good. I got a message from D this morning saying, please can I come to your house? What is a Gramma to do?? I picked him up and told him we need to try and get some of the ice off the cedar trees so they wouldn't break. He was excited, and so we got started. I had a window cleaner on a long handle and I attached the extension handle to it and started bashing at the tree as far up as I could reach. Daniel also tried and all we accomplished was to break the top off the window cleaner, break the extension handle and break lots of small pieces off the cedars. We did very little to actually remove any ice buildup, so I decided the trees were on their own, that they would survive or not. We went in and built an awesome fort, built a ramp for racing marbles and beanies, chased each other with the vaccuum, moved some furniture (good thing he is so strong!), ate some cheese and crackers (him, not me), watched a movie and discussed the merits of a magazine rack for his mom for Christmas. She was surprised by his generous gift when she arrived to pick him up!! I finsihed re-organizing the basement and started some laundry and waited until D left to put ice melter on the driveway. After he left, I was thinking about something I heard about someone who is in the same bariatric program, but is much further along. The person is really struggling with over eating and I have already been aware that I'm more than a little worried about what will happen when life is back to a more "normal" food routine. Right now I'm clean and I'm always satisfied, so it's easy. When I have to prepare my own food again, I know it will be a challenge not to go back to old habits. I don't know, but I imagine that even for addictions that you never go back to your drug, the normal routines of life will probably have that challenge too. It seems difficult that after we kick this habit, we need to go back to our drug and wrestle it to the ground every day, because we can't live without it. I will continue to be aware and get ready to tackle the problem when it arises. You all need to know that if I need you, I will be asking for help. I NEED to do this, so I'm going to be ready with a plan. Thanks, elly "Gramma, don't put the ice melter on, I want the ice to stay!" D Slessor "Happiness does not come from doing easy work but from the afterglow of satisfaction that comes after the achievement of a difficult task that demanded our best. Theodore Isaac Rubin