I never should have told Peter he was right about something!

Even though it's occasionally true, I'm convinced that it's a mistake to tell him. Then he gets all cocky and full of attitude 'n shit. So, Peter, I think you are wrong this time. I do not feel guilty when I feel good, but I am also aware that I will have days like today, when there are a few stark reminders of the loss I am experiencing. I didn't fall apart and I'm pretty sure I won't, but I still know that as we disentangle our "together" lives into more separate ones, there will be grief along the way. I think that it's important to expect that for a while and I would be foolish not to prepare for those times, so that they don't take me by surprise and knock me off my feet. Cause when I fall on my ass, I fall HARD! Plus there's not as much padding there as there used to be. Still lots but less. I hate to overstate my point, but I also think you are wrong about the back up camera for my car. It's not just the backing up visibility that I need, but all around. Today I bought an 08 Chevy Uplander with 114 Kms, basic, but clean and with great visibility all the way around. It is roomy and comfortable, I know the previous owner and who did all the services, plus they are putting 4 new Michelin x ice 3 snows on. I'm excited. Now, just so you know that I don't care if you are right or wrong, I love you immensely and am so grateful that you love me. At least you got that right... Clinic did not disappoint today, and the group is becoming more and more important to me. The information is pretty overwhelming sometimes because there is just so much, but the people are so real and truly a gift to me. I just don't really have words to describe the support and comraderie and friendship I feel from these people. I am truly blessed. Plus the 2 Lisas that lead the group are smart and funny and I think they like us! Living in gratitude, elly "I do not agree with what you have to say, but I'll defend to the death your right to say it." Voltaire "You have your way. I have my way. As for the right way, the correct way, and the only way, it does not exist." Friedrich Nietzsche