overload!

It was a good day, a fine day really, in all respects except one; at clinic we started discussions about re-integration of the drug!! I was not the only one in the room who panicked, but in the moment that was no consolation. I have felt a bit overwhelmed by the plethora of nutritional information already, add no clinic for 3 weeks and go back to that! The plan is to start re-introducing food next Thurs. However, we have been given some tools to explore before next week and I will do that. I have also reminded myself that I was doing it before I started the program, which helped. I also know that I don't need to figure it out all at once...one meal at a time, one day at a time, one issue at a time. I also just remembered that the problems I see in my head sometimes don't show up at all! So, now that I've talked myself down a bit, I can tell you that I feel better and stronger every day, physically. I went for a walk with the dogs after work and it was much nicer than it has been the last few days. I saw B today and while it made me a little sad, I realize that it was better than it has been for some time, so it also made me happy. I may never stop wishing that it could be different, but I will continue to celebrate the things that are good. Hunter Girl, I missed you today and hope you are safe and warm! Celebrating gifts, elly "I have a theory about the human mind. A brain is a lot like a computer. It will only take so many facts, and then it will go on overload and blow up." Erma Bombeck