go ahead, feel good!

I hate to ever admit that Peter is even partially right, but today I must do exactly that.  It's easier to feel guilty than to feel proud.  It's easier to feel bad than to accept all the goodness and joy that life has to offer.  It is easier, and more comfortable to feel sad and sorry than to celebrate and rejoice in myself.  However, it serves no useful purpose, so fuck that.  I welcome joy into my life.  I celebrate my accomplishments.  I thoroughly enjoyed eating carrots today!  I love so many wonderful people who also love me.  I accept and welcome goodness into every aspect of my life.  I make space for tenderness and love, excitement and peace, health, wealth and wisdom.

I even celebrated a very tender moment with my husband today, and felt closer to him than I have for a long time.  We have been honest and kind to each other and sharing a real hug is still one of the most intimate and precious gifts to me.

Tomorrow starts the first day of two weeks of only 2 shakes, plus either two meals or one meal and two snacks.  I am excited and have tomorrow planned...cheese and grapes for morning snack, yogurt and apple for afternoon snack and salmon, green beans and yam noodles for supper.  Mmmmm, just what I need!

Tomorrow I must also attend a funeral for a friend's husband.  She has loved him since she was 16 years old and he loved her so much that he agreed to be resuscitated, even though he was ready to die at least 6 months ago.  He has been in heart failure, kidney failure, etc for some time.  Great love often causes great loss.  I am certain that their love will live on.

Lastly, please help me to envision a diagnosis and healthful solution to Mia's ongoing medical issues.  Thank you, my friends, elly

"You grow up a bit damaged or broken then you have some success but you don't know how to feel good about the work you're doing or the life you're leading."  Johnny Depp 

"I don't judge others. I say if you feel good with what you're doing, let your freak flag fly."  Sarah Jessica Parker  (oh yeah!)