recovery day

I  was exhausted when I woke up this morning. I eventually dragged my ass out of bed and went to the gym. I only had 15 minutes in the pool, but better than nothing. I have had a headache all day as well and I'm sure it's from yesterday's stress.

On a positive note, I went to clinic early to chat a bit more with the social worker and it was so affirming. She told me how much they appreciate my comments and input during sessions. She celebrated that I didn't even consider turning to food, acknowledged how difficult the situations were and told me how lovely I am.

I also asked if they ever get suggestions for additional program ideas and she said yes. I asked about the possibility of including more info about addictions, including how to determine if you are an addict and additional strategies to deal with it if you decide you are. She took notes, said I'm not the first person to suggest it and that she felt it would be very worthwhile. Then during clinic, I talked a bit about never being able to eat for pleasure again, but only for fuel.

At this point, I have not decided where my end goal will be, only that I will set at least one more after I reach my current one. I suspect I will add several more, but time will tell. I am thrilled and delighted with my progress, but not particularly with my weight. What I'm most excited about is my progress handling the addiction. Not that I'm not happy about the weight too, cause I am!

I treated myself today to a new tablet, after struggling for some time with power issues on my old one. I got a keyboard that has Bluetooth and paired it no problem, but now still need to figure out how to use it. So this post is using the tablet keyboard, which was surprisingly easier to use than my old one.

Today I'm incredibly grateful, elly


"Recovery begins from the darkest moment." John Major