I do know!

John, obviously Peter doesn't know everything any more, as he still thinks that whole milk and Mary's ribs are bad for me!  However, he is right on target with this one.  It is more painful not to do this than to do it, therefore I'm doing it.

I thought about why this is more painful for me now than ever in the past and I knew right away. In the last few years  I have been more and more aware of ageing and what it is doing to my body.  I have aches and pains that I never knew existed.  I have difficulty moving and sleeping. I'm not as good at driving or directions or remembering names.  Everything is harder than it used to be.  Playing with the kids is harder than I want it to be! Playing in general is harder than I want it to be and I want to play until I croak!

Overall, I can accept that I'm getting older and everything that's connected with that.  I cannot and will not accept it being harder than it needs to be.  Being old I can't do anything about. Being fat I can and will continue to do something about.

Positively, elly

"Find a place inside where there's joy, and the joy will burn out the pain."  Joseph Campbell