awake today

I have been attributing all of my "just too tired" to getting older and the necessity to continue working.  In retrospect, when I think about the changes that I have been asking my body to adjust to, I think it is more than likely partly that.  The kinder, gentler me is sticking to that story!

I didn't sleep overly well again last night, and felt pretty tired when I woke.  I had almost convinced myself not to go to the gym, when I realized how dark it still was (6AM).  I got out my happy lamp, plugged it in, lay in front of it for 15 min. and then got up and went to the pool.  I wasn't totally energized, but I got there and did my routine.  I have decreased my dose of antidepressant down to 1/3 of what I was taking and I probably need a little boost as it starts to darken.  It can't hurt...

It was a pretty good day at work and then later this afternoon, I went for a massage treatment.  I always need to be a bit laid back for a few days after, so it was good timing and I have a quiet evening planned.

Thanks for all the encouragement, elly

"Knowing your own darkness is the best method of dealing with the darknesses of other people."  Carl Jung

"We stumble and fall constantly even when we are most enlightened, but when we are in true spiritual darkness, we do not even know that we have fallen."  Thomas Merton