support

It is such a huge learning curve to move from an external locus of control to an internal one. Today I got worried about it, cause I was hungry all day, with no obvious reason that I could see. I felt that I needed more and I ate more. I felt good about the choices I made but there is still that big part of me that has struggled with this for 60 years, so can I really be trusted?? I got some support and decided that it's ok to find out either way. If it escalates, I will know that something else is going on. If not, I will accept that I can and do know what I need. I don't have to be in the "know" I can be in the "learn"!

Speaking of support, it has been so wonderful to be able to support some others as I go along and it reminded me that there's something that I've been wanting to acknowledge for some time. If it were not for the insight, courage and caring of a dear friend, I would not be where I am. As a matter of fact I wouldn't even now about the program if it wasn't for her. When she first asked me if I might be interested in it, I said "no". I thought that I knew everything I needed, but I just couldn't do it. While she acknowledged feeling the same way, she had heard that people had been successful and maybe it would be worth trying. The longer I thought about it, the more I grew hopeful and I went from there...

I have learned so much over the course of my life from one of my best friends and oldest sister, so adding this to what I owe to her is nothing, and yet I needed to do it. I owe her such a debt of gratitude for giving me my life back, and I trust that she will continue to allow me to be a friend and support her in turn.

Thank you Cory, from the bottom of my heart, elly

"In a relationship, each person should support the other. They should lift each other up."  Taylor Swift