Yesterday was disappointing, but when I got on the scale this morning at the Y, I was totally demoralized. I weighed 215 lbs; I had debated about avoiding, but I've never been good at that for any length of time. Then I debated not mentioning it, but that felt like denying who I am today, and if I can't find a way to accept and celebrate who I am, then I have more problems than depression.
I felt kind of fragile and a bit weepy all day, especially when I got offers of support, but I was working so that helped. I also read somewhere recently that distraction can be a big help, so I did that in my mind often during the day. I had my first reasonably healthy supper in a while, although I had 2 helpings of homemade ice cream cake at work.
I also realized that I might have missed 1 or 2 thyroid pills, which would impact my mood and energy, so maybe things will look better after I get back on track. I try to use a dosette, but then forget to fill it, so it doesn't do much good.
Tonight I feel better than this morning or yesterday, so that's a start. Starting is good.
Thanks for love and compassion. Thanks for forgiveness. Thanks for the beautiful people who are my life.
Love, elly
I'll trade you problems. No wait! Maybe not!
ReplyDeleteIt just always seems that everybody else has it easier. And while that's rarely true, it doesn't mean your challenges are small. You have a tough row to hoe, and the worst thing you can do is beat yourself up. You're gonna be okay. Thanks for having the courage to keep reporting, and to keep battling.
And just to keep you honest, it's impossible to forget to fill the dosette. You just don't do it when it needs done....like as soon as it's empty.
Love
Peter
Routine for the dosette .. I do mine every Sunday. I usually fill an extra day. It works for me, although I often forget what I take when. Hang in there. You are much loved.
ReplyDeleteLove, gail
Ditto Pete! I also agree with Gail, you are much loved. Hang in there because you are so damn worth it.
ReplyDeleteLove you more
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