Almost too tired!

Thanks to Sam, I didn't get much sleep last night. He got up at 130ish, in one of his "I'm crying but I don't know what's wrong and I can't wake up enough to ask" moments. I tried to console him, tried the bathroom and a drink, to no avail. Eventually he drifted back off to sleep. At 2 AM, the water softener started to regenerated, which always freaks Lucy out, so I took both dogs to the couch. About an hour later, Sam wandered over (he seemed to know right where I was), but didn't want to go back to bed. So, now we had 2 dogs, tired Sam, and tired grandma on the couch and Daniel alone in my bed. What a night!

Yesterday I realized that B had given my neighbour permission to build his shed on my property. Its only about 6 inches, but he told me this when I went over to discuss concerns that I had about their new driveway going on my property. I was not expecting the comments that he and his wife made, which totally discounted me, but I was blown away by this information. The fact that B didn't tell me about it makes me think that he knew I wouldn't have agreed, but who knows?

Regardless I was hooked emotionally, and then was reliving the other past hurts in our relationship. Of course, by now I'm crying and the neighbour is telling me repeatedly how nice everything will look and that it's not a big deal. He changed the subject at least half a dozen times and I decided I better get out of the conversation until I could think more clearly.

Digging in the dirt all day helped me to let go of most of the hurt I was feeling. My biggest realization was the fact that I was much more upset about B than the neighbour.

This morning, in spite of the lack of sleep, I felt more clear. I got my survey out, got a tape measure and a can of spray paint and marked where I believe the property line is. Then I went back to his house, told him what I had done and if he or his pavers thought it should be somewhere else to let me know. He suddenly seemed quite agreeable, but I still don't trust him. I've also asked my tenants to text me when the crew arrives as one of them is almost always home. I will leave work to see them!

I really enjoyed the family fun day at the Y after swimming with the kids. It was funderful!!

Thanks to the dirt! Thanks to Sam for reminding me how fortunate I am to have a comfy bed. Thanks to the Guelph YMCA and the mostly wonderful people who work there.

Love, elly