not quite

I had a wonderful visit with my friends. Such great women! The only disappointment was the Irish jig that was on the agenda for the afternoon. Apparently "someone" thinks that trivia and facts are a "jig". We were not the only ones disillusioned by this mistake.

And apparently I'm not quite over whatever is going on with my belly and/or my psyche.

I had a great day until I was late for the dentist. I was late because a friend stopped by whose call I haven't returned because I haven't felt up to it. Then the shame and embarrassment I've been struggling with on and off hit me full force and I got candy (after the dentist), which I don't even like, and ate it all! I kept trying to talk myself out of it, to no avail. It didn't help, but added to my dismay and feelings of worthlessness.

I went to bed about 7:30 because I felt awful, got up about 10 to let the dogs out and thought I was going to pass out from abdominal pain. I got to the bathroom on time and started to feel a little better, when I started to brown out! My vision got "snowy", I got hot and shaky and my vision started to fade. I got a little panicky  and tried to get to my phone in case I needed to call someone. It passed after a few minutes and I was able to get the dogs in and get back to bed, but I brought a bucket with me, just in case. I was pretty nauseous by then, but I think it was from the pain. I guess I'm just full of hot air! Maybe I'm full of shit!

I feel pretty normal again now, an hour later. Go figure!

I weighed in at the Y this morning at 199 lbs.

Love, elly