surprise

Several surprises, actually, some good and some not so much!

I weighed in at the Y this morning at 194 lbs, up another 2 lbs. That in itself wasn't really surprising, especially with the holiday and other things going on that have caused some pretty out-of-control eating lately. However, I decided as this is continuing in a direction I'm definitely not happy with, I resolved to reactivate my fitness pal and track my intake for a while. That seemed to have an immediate positive impact, but I was still over my daily limit by afternoon snack! Yikes!! Surprise # 1.

Surprise # 2 came in the form of a roundabout apology from a student who has been kicking my bike hard enough to shift the handlebars! He's been pretty mad at me, but I haven't reacted, and when I told the principal what was happening, she checked the video, spoke to him about it, and he went back out and did it again! She doesn't always support staff all that well, and I had the feeling that she was going to brush it off. She asked the social worker to ask him about it, and he took responsibility for it. He apologized, and said he would prefer I had spoken to him. He is often quite confrontational when addressed, so I wouldn't have normally done that. I said I was happy to do that, although it's why he was mad at me in the first place! He thanked me, I thanked him, he said you're welcome!! It was pretty special, especially for this young man.

Surprise # 3 maybe shouldn't be a surprise, but it still shocks me to be as tired as I am. I think it's partly catch up from the middle of the night call, partly a little depression that's normal for me this time of year, and maybe even from overeating. My hot flashes are back with a vengeance, so I'm pretty sure that's not helping either. I've had hardly any for the last year, and I thought 10 years was long enough. Apparently I'm wrong again! I'm going to try to get back to the Y for some evening activities once or twice a week to see if that helps. Kelly has a membership now too, so I can bug her and Anne to go too!

So I'm continuing indefinitely with myfitnesspal, getting back to the gym more, and going to bed early tonight. I'm determined!

"There is no surprise more magical than the surprise of being loved: It is God's finger on man's shoulder." Charles Morgan

"One day I looked at something in myself that I had been avoiding because it was too painful. Yet once I did, I had an unexpected surprise. Rather than self-hatred, I was flooded with compassion for myself because I realized the pain necessary to develop that coping mechanism to begin with." Marianne Williamson

Love, elly