roller coaster

It was an emotional day, and I'm exhausted, but better than yesterday. I woke up still feeling kind of fragile, but went to the Y and got in the pool. I was still pretty emotional by the time I got to work, so I called and got some support and felt better. Then the principal asked how I was doing and I just started to cry, but she was supportive and kind. It's a good thing I love my work, as that got my mind busy and engaged and not thinking about me.

I booked the afternoon off to speak at clinic and that always makes me feel better. I'm not alone in my struggles or emotions. I find it so rewarding to talk with people who accept my contribution with gratitude, and I hope I help them as well. I still think there should be more or longer follow up to the program, but it is what it is. One of the groups asked about my husband and if he was supportive, so I told them he had left. It was quite wonderful after to have one of the gentlemen come to tell me I was a good looking woman and my husband was nuts!

I stopped a few places to look for a better splint, bought a small one, but it's no good either. They suggested I get a physiotherapist to make me one, so will ask Dr Ting about it on Friday when I go back to see him.

The afternoon was the turning point and the day kept getting better. Kelly made me supper, cleaned off my kitchen counter and insisted I play with the boys while she did. Awesomeness! I'm going back to clinic in the morning for another 2 groups and am quite looking forward to it. It's good for what ails me.

"I'm not sure I always feel like I'm in the seat. Sometimes I'm only holding on by one hand and flying out behind the roller coaster. I don't know anybody who doesn't feel that way." David Morse

Love, elly