I call bullshit!

Yup, I call bullshit on myself. I'm not sure how I managed it, but maybe it was helped by the beautiful simple supper I had at Mary's last night. However I was able to get clear, I'm just grateful I did. Settling for "no sugar", when I'm struggling with depression is bullshit! I need to be even more careful than normal. If I can decide not to eat sugar, I can decide to eat healthy. When I don't, I don't think clearly, don't sleep as well and gain weight, which sets up the vicious cycle of depression for me. I might still struggle some days, but I had the best day today that I've had in a long while. I ate clean all day, rode my bike to work and over to the General for the orientation session. It was wonderful. As usual, I don't really know how I was perceived, but there were a lot of nodding heads, so at least they shared my experience.

I bought myself a bright orange jacket to wear, some reflective Velcro straps for my pants, and a pair of gloves at the university athletic wear sale. Mary gave me crap for wearing my black jacket!

I also wanted to tell you about something that made me happy yesterday. When I drove over the train tracks down the street I thought I saw a phone. By the time I got turned around, I saw it get run over. It looked like it may have had a cover on it, and I had already turned around, so I stopped to pick it up. It did have an otter box on it, but it looked like that had come off the first time it got hit. The screen was smashed, but the phone still worked. At the very least, I hoped to return the SIM card. I took it to school the next day, found a student who also uses koodo, switched out the SIM card, and called the kids dad, who came in to pick it up. They were so grateful!

Adrian and Aubrey are having a sleepover, so that's it for tonight.

"There comes a time in the affairs of man when he must take the bull by the tail and face the situation."

Love, elly