decisions decisions...

It was a quiet day, mostly, and I spent some time cleaning and sorting in the basement, which doesn't always get much attention. I sometimes wonder if this place is more work than it's worth, but what are the optons...until I am totally crazy demented I want to be someplace where I can go outside, and I really love the yard. I guess that decision will happen in time.... The last week or so I have been looking at a vehicle that I could feel better in and see better. I love my car, except that I never feel like my visability is good enough, and the older I get, the better visibility I want. B took a Subaru Forrester out for a test drive that I was kind of interested in, but it had a burnt oil smell when he got back, so I'm not sure I want to risk the chance that it may have some engine trouble that hasn't been identified. I guess that decision will happen in time... Today is the first day that I have had trouble getting all of my shakes in. I really must start with the events of this morning, which maybe means that I am closer to the crazy dementia I mentioned earlier. I never reset my alarm on the weekends, but just turn down the volume on Friday night and turn it back up Sunday night. When my alarm goes off I turn on my happy lamp for 15 min, my phone alarm goes off and I get up, get my bathing suit on and get dressed. I feed the dogs, let them out, get my water and shakes prepared and gather everything up and get going to the gym. So this morning I had the car warming up, everything ready, my gym bag in the car and was heading out with my lunch bag and water, when I stopped in the driveway. You all have it figured out by now, right? Thank god that I realized before I actually got under way! Bottom line, I went back to bed, but wasn't hungry. Got up again an hour or so later and went for a swim, mixed a shake to take, even though I really wasn't hungry even then. I have been like that all day, and am still struggling to get the last one into me before I go to bed. I have been feeling some anxiety the last little while and maybe that is taking a toll. I need to get some bloodwork done and have been coughing for quite a while so it could just be that I'm a little run down. I will make an appointment for it tomorrow. I'm sure that the crazy demented decision will happen in time too, hopefully later rather than sooner! Love, elly "Never cut a tree down in the wintertime. Never make a negative decision in the low time. Never make your most important decisions when you are in your worst moods. Wait. Be patient. The storm will pass. The spring will come." Robert H. Schuller "Stay committed to your decisions, but stay flexible in your approach." Tony Robbins