Experimenting

Today when I saw Talaria we tried out different ways to do the bilateral brain stimulation. Some people like watching something that moves from side to side, so your eyes go back and forth. She also showed me bilateral tapping with the your hands, either on your legs or arms, headset with alternating beeps and a vibrating thing you hold in both hands. I really liked the last one and we tried it out a few times. It's like holding a small stone in each hand and they vibrate alternately.

The first thing she had me do was to practice one of the relaxation strategies while holding them. After doing that twice, she asked me to talk about something that had happened recently that was hard for me. She asked specific questions about how it felt to have that happen. Then she had me do the same thing with the relaxation strategy. The first part is to help the brain implant the strategy, and the second part gives me an idea of how we will take the more traumatic memories from earlier on and use those strategies to help the brain reprogram our response to those memories. Quite fascinating!

We also spent some time discussing some of the positive nurturing and loving I've experienced in my life, not just from my parents, but from anyone. It was wonderful to talk about all the blessings I've received from all of you, and how grateful I am for you.

I'm tired, but excited. I'm hopeful. I'm extremely grateful.

Love, elly