As is often the case, the day after often hurts more than the day of. I'm fine except for my neck, which is very sore, and didn't hurt at all yesterday. It's often where I feel shake ups.
I'm also still very emotional and teary today, and I think it's good. It's not keeping me from work, but feels real; short lived, but real.
A student had a meltdown today, making several personal and global threats, and yelling and swearing at a student sitting beside me, who had done nothing to initiate the incident. When I asked the student afterwards if he needed some support about it, we were both verbally attacked by other students who perceived my question as a judgement of their friend, who had the meltdown. During the next half hour, I ate a chocolate bar, pretzels, and chips. Otherwise, I ate quite well again.
I returned the leftover chocolate bars to Aubrey, who was selling them for his nursery school. I emailed the social worker at the clinic to ask if I could meet with her. I called the board EAP program to arrange support from someone. I resigned officially from the executive, as past president. I made a few more phone calls, including my hair guy for a shave and chop. It's not perfect, but I'll take it and feel grateful.
I weighed in this morning at the Y at 217 lbs.
Love, elly
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