Friday, October 30, 2015

I'm so angry!

As usual, when I'm most angry, it's at myself. I just get so frustrated with myself when I get through a difficult day with lots of treats around, homemade goodies, chocolate and grilled cheese and then totally lose it after supper. The day was done, but I managed to fit in a pigout of monumental proportions. I just don't get it. I'm tired of fighting, winning a few and then losing it again. I'm frustrated.
I feel bad for the rant and I know it doesn't help, but I guess I'm feeling sorry for myself tonight. I'm going to take small comfort from the fact that my addiction only ruins my own life and send a prayer out to the universe for all those facing the more destructive ones.
Tomorrow I'll start again, again.
Love, elly

4 comments:

  1. Your just on a rough patch of road that requires more work. If you keep fighting it will eventually smooth out again. Hang in there and keep believing.

    I love you just the way you are

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  2. I too love you just the way you are chick, and as long as you regroup and try once more than you fail, you will win!
    Love holij

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  3. Love you too! Back at it.

    Love, gail

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  4. I don't mind at all when you rant about frustration and anger at yourself. I think it's a good thing actually. You are just holding yourself accountable in a public manner. I understand your feelings.
    Love
    Peter

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