Choices

I made lots of them yesterday, as we all do every day. Most of my bad ones were about food. However, I also made some good ones that were about taking care of myself.

I decided fairly early in the day to ask people at work who are involved in our strike action to consider taking over for me as strike captain. I then called our provincial negotiator to have some discussion about our local negotiations. He called me back and said that he will absolutely take over as spokesperson at our local table. He also understood totally the stress of people in the local sites not having any understanding of the toll it takes being the person who stands up to take on leadership in these positions. He suggested that I take a few days to consider if it would be better and healthier for me to stop everything, even the local table negotiations. I'm thinking about it.

I asked my coworkers to meet at the end of the day, and after some coercion from the person who's been bullying me, someone else agreed to take over. This person also made reference to "our big fight" during this brief discussion.

I didn't go to work today. I've spent most of the morning crying and thinking. I called our wellness person at the board office, told her what's been going on, and asked for help. If it can't be resolved, I need to move to another school. She suggested that I go back to the principal and ask her to help resolve the problem. I've set up an appointment with her and the principal for early Tuesday morning.

I'm pretty anxious about facing her bullying and addressing what's going on, but I figure I have nothing to lose. I just want her to leave me alone and not talk to me.

Interestingly, I'm not depressed. I'm sad and angry, but not depressed. The food decisions will sort themselves, as I sort through this.

Now I'm going for a walk.

Love, elly