Tuesday, August 6, 2013

the beginning or the end, maybe both...

Food has been my comfort and my torment for many years (59).  I have tried many ways and many times to  give up my addiction to food, all eventually unsuccessful.  However, I feel like I'm at the edge of something new, and yes, I realize that it always starts like that!  I have learned a few things during my struggles and I think I'm ready to give this up.
It's not that I mind being fat that much, although it has started to impact the quality of my life more than usual as I age, but the addiction itself that keeps me from being fully alive and awake.  Eating allows me to exist inside a protective shell that is more comfortable than being aware of all my feelings about the shite in the world.  That's what I want to give up before croak!
So, for today, I will assess how much food I need for the energy I'm expending and eat only that.  I will decide one piece of crap at a time what I need for the situation, and food will not be the answer.

Send me love as it is all we need, elly

The ideal time to plant a tree was 50 years ago; plant it now anyway.   Peter Rooyakkers

4 comments:

  1. Enjoyed reading your first entry and look forward to more! Great title! Love and energy your way Elly!

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  2. I will enjoy witnessing your success! I'm going tell the whole world....once I have your permission of course. I also look forward to correcting your spelling! I'll be checking for post number two tomorrow.

    Love
    Peter

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  3. I love you. No matter how much you weigh.
    But i want you to live forever (or at least as long as i do) so go mama!

    Kelly

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