awake!

One of the painful things about being aware and not giving in to addiction is that you feel compelled to act on the things you notice...

So, I will drive a little more slowly, although I was not driving at all quickly when I crashed.  I will do whatever I can to not be distracted while driving, including turning my phone off when I get in the car, even though that's not what distracted me.  Bernie says it's the Dutch in me that was looking to see what was free on the lawn and Peter, in some sense, seems to agree that it is our parents fault.  I am very aware that I don't want to die in a car crash.

I had a killer headache today, so it was a good thing I didn't have much on my agenda.  I finally napped a little with an ice pack on my head and it's somewhat better.  I'm going to pick up 2 of my boys, which I'm hoping will take care of the rest, or at least make me not care so much.

A huge thank you to the Rev Pete, (he's been trying to get Cory's title for years!) who finally got me to laugh and relax about what happened by reminding me of his own idiocy.  Thank you also to all the other wonderful people in my life who cared enough to assure me I'm not ready to be locked up yet!

I love you all and feel loved by you, elly

"I have decided to stick with love. Hate is too big a burden to bear."  Martin Luther King Jr.