I had the pleasure today of having lunch with my two old friends from the Y, who in their own words are eighty two and eighty damn nine. I allowed myself some fresh Italian bread with grilled veggies, which were still a little crisp. While it was more bread than I would normally have, I felt good about what I had...a conscious choice rather than a driven need. Interestingly, I had no difficulty not helping them with the dessert they got to share!
I also made a nice supper for Bernie before he went to work today. He was concerned that I was not eating enough, but I am certain that I did, adding a cob of corn to what I already had planned. Again, I felt really good about it.
I did struggle while I was a Shoppers today, when I found myself walking around looking at the food, mostly the junk food. When I realised what I was doing, I was grateful for the awareness, found that it was almost supper time, made my purchases and left!
I feel especially grateful today for my 2 psuedo grammas and a car that's fixed, elly
"I'm a pushover, I make allowances for people I like." Zaha Hadid (mostly I like me)
This awareness you have in times of struggle is your most powerful tool. Besides this, nobody can have too many grammas. I adopt them any chance I get, and I am pretty sure thay get as much out of it as I do.
ReplyDeleteLove happy odd john
Last night, after I had my dinner and snack I found myself still hungry. Or was it real hunger??!! In the end I figured out it was stress that was creating this gnawing pain in my stomach. The stress being, that I spilled beer on my Mac computer that has been my best computer so far and now it's fucked. Pardon my french! Now to continue finding ways to deal with this kinda of stress without using food.
ReplyDeleteThanks Elly for this blog and making me more aware of the different feelings of pseudo hunger!
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