The old lady's still fat

For a week and a half I ate really well. Lots of fruits and veggies and reasonable amounts of other things. It felt easy. The feeling that I was enough and that there was enough for me continued. I was surprised, but quite delighted by how easy it seemed.

I was aware that I hadn't mentioned it here, because I was waiting for it to disappear, which of course, it did. I was waiting for it, so what choice was there. Talaria assures me that this is all perfectly normal. (She doesn't know our family, after all!) She says that because some of these defenses have been in place for so many years, it will take time to slowly change.

We only did a very short bilateral stimulation before we ended on Friday, but we did talk more about how I'm feeling. Most of the time I'm doing very well, but it still doesn't take a lot to change that. It's still way better than I've felt for over a year, so I'm still pretty happy about that, in spite of the fact that I weigh more now than when I started the program at the General. I'm trying to continue to keep the focus on feeling well and trust that the rest will happen when it will.

It's been harder than I expected to know the girls are in Florida without me. I guess I should pull up my big girl panties and get over it! Right??

One day at a time, I'm still swimming!
Love, elly