Good, part 2

I'm still concerned that I'm just being too lazy, and that I will have to pay for it eventually. I'm trying really hard to tell that voice to fuck right off! I might have to pay, but not today!

In spite of the fact that I know no one cares about the mundane things I accomplish, it helps me to write them down, so feel free to check out. I slept in because I took half a sleeping pill; yeah! I got to the pool and walked the dogs. I thought about getting my bike out and didn't. I lugged an old table up and put it in the van to drop in Tim's dumpster. I moved my work bench into the shed and put a coat of paint on the table on my patio. I found Daniel's health card which I lost yesterday. I read in the rain on my leaky patio. (This is clearly a passive aggressive approach. I'm hoping when Pete gets back from vacation, he'll see if anything can be done about it!) I bought a hoe, a Dutch hoe. I think it will kill the weeds better than any other kind, don't you?

I went back to the Dr today. Apparently the lingering headaches I have are a result of the medication. I can live with it for now, especially because I really think I will eventually be able to decrease or get rid of it altogether. If not, that's OK too. I see him again in September and I will have had 2 EMDR treatments by then. I love that he makes suggestions and lists options and then asks me what I want to do. He also said weight gain is a side effect, which is good to know. I'm still doing fairly well eating reasonably, but I'm not gonna focus on weight loss right now. I'm not recording or measuring anything, just trying to follow healthy guidelines and amounts. If I lose, fine. If not, my main focus remains to keep feeling better. If the meds mean that doesn't happen right now, OK.

I had a lovely supper with my Mia, followed by a browse through the thrift shop. I found a movie I thought the kids would like, only to discover there was a different movie in the case. I had seen the case for that movie too, and spent 15 minutes looking for it to see if they might have been switched. Paula was to the point where she was telling me I imagined it when I found it, only to discover that it had the same movie inside. I was just glad to prove that I didn't make it up!! Lol

For today, I'm definitely less anxious and less depressed. I'm very blessed to have people who love me. Without them, I'd be nothing. I think that's probably true for everyone.
Love, elly