Taking stock

I'm aware that I've been feeling kind of hopeless about what I'm eating. This morning, however, I decided to reevaluate. My clothes are all too small or very tight. I put on my fat pants this morning and realized that they are still quite a bit too big for me. So while I'm not where I want to be, I'm also not where I was a few years ago.

Yesterday I decided to call the EAP back and ask to see someone else, who has more availability. I have an appointment for next week and another for the week after. When I called the board office to tell them about the wait time for the first person, they agreed it was totally unacceptable. It doesn't help me to wait for someone who's not available.

I also just finished reading Jian Ghomeshi's apology, the statement of Kathryn Borel, and the CBC's apology to her. It's a start, and in spite of the fact that he's walking away again, I'm more hopeful that things will continue to change for the better. I think she actually accomplished more than she ever could have during a trial and what I appreciate most is that she did it without exposing herself to the prejudice of our uneducated judicial system. Kudos to her!

So while I haven't made a significant change to the way I'm eating, I have been getting out for short walks during the day, I've been getting to the pool more days than not and I'm paying my bills. Im also exploring several options for EMDR, which is eye movement desensitization and reprogramming and is becoming commonly accepted as one of the best ways to treat post traumatic stress disorder.

So that's where I'm at today... hanging in
Love, elly