realization

At some point today it dawned on me what people meant when they told me they missed me on the weekend. At first I thought, I probably wouldn't have seen (them) anyway. It hit me all of a sudden at the office this afternoon, and what a delight! I have been writing to help myself and to get support from those willing, but it seems to have also had the effect that others miss me when I'm not talking, which is a real, true gift to me. Often in the past I have thought of myself as being a pain in the ass, or a bother or always needing help with something. Now don't get me wrong, I still know that I'm all of those things, but I'm also starting to believe that I matter to people, and that in some way, it helps them to help me. Anyway, thank you all! I weighed in at the Y this morning at 242 lbs, for a total loss of 52 lbs and 42 more to my next goal. I bought a new bathing suit and it feels so good, plus I like it! I am having on-going problems with my left knee, so I guess I'll have to get out the requisition for physio I got and actually follow up. It was a good workout regardless. The eating/drinking continues to go well. I really enjoy my broth / veggies every day, and the only issue I occasionally have with the shakes is clumping. I bought a milk frother at Canadian Tire today and will see if that makes any difference. I certainly continue to feel satisfied with my intake and continue to focus and unlearning old patterns during this time. Thanks again for loving me and right back atcha! elly "The only limit to our realization of tomorrow will be our doubts of today." Franklin D. Roosevelt And I really like this one! "Presents don't really mean much to me. I don't want to sound mawkish, but - it was the realization that I have a great many people in my life who really love me, and who I really love." Gabriel Byrne