Hello again,

It's me!

The past few months have been a rollercoaster, a parents worst nightmare, a constant battle with exhaustion, and also a time of great gifts and wonderful loving support. I don't want to recount it, except to say that I finally feel like I can take a deep breath again, and that I believe he will survive.

Almost 2 weeks ago, I got an email that I've been dreading and excited about at the same time. I received a copy of the trailer for the documentary called "and I survived". The email said that there is still a lot of editing to do but that everyone filmed will be in it. I'm in the trailer and I had mixed emotions watching it.

It's been over a year since filming and I didn't recognize the calm confident woman I saw. I think I can find her again. I've felt stronger and more rested than I have since Feb. Game on!

The closing comment didn't feel difficult when I made it, but watching it now, the struggle is obvious to me. That's OK too. I also recognized that I've done a lot of work since then and I wasn't triggered by watching it. Progress.

That's all for today, but I hope to be more present here.

Crowestrong, elly